The High Price of Worrying

I could not have possibly imagined the twists and turns my life would take in these past four years. There were some surprises before that. A few unexpected plot twists here and there. But the last four years were doozies. And it was in those four years that I first experience what I would consider to be true anxiety.


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It wouldn’t have been the first time I’d every worry about something. Of course, I’d worried in the past. But this was long lasting and persistent worrying. It never let up. I felt the weight of it on me day and night. And I kept thinking and hoping that eventually something would give before the worry got the better of me.

And I never knew what the better of me would be, but I knew that the worrying was taking a toll on me both physically and mentally. Nothing felt right. Nothing was right. Persistent worrying, like the kind I was experiencing causes the body’s sympathetic nervous system to release stress hormones.

Stress hormones can protect us in the short run, if we are really in danger. But over a long period of time, they can wreak real havoc on the body. Check out this information from the American Psychological Association about the effects that stress can have on every single system of the body. Every single system.

And for all the worrying I did, all of the time that I spent ruminating over what might happen, I didn’t imagine what actually did unfold. What my life is now is not the worst case scenario I’d imagined. And so, all of my worrying was truly for naught.

And because one of the worst tragedies that I could have imagined has already occurred, it has allowed me to put things into perspective, realizing that my time would be better spent living in the present rather than worrying about a future, I am cannot possibly accurately predict.

My meditation practice is improving with regular practice and consistency, and today we even tried something called laughing yoga, which was amazing and refreshing. You can read more about this stress relieving practice here.